beautiful disaster.(you looked fine to me, so I should too)

I'm amazed this time at my recovery speed.
alright, let's put it this way.
I know I've tried my best at salvaging things but sometimes in life, things don't always work out the way you want it to be.
but at the least, I tried.
I'm answerable to myself, even if the answers to my questions remain a mystery, from now on.
it's just another failed relationship I guess.
now, I looked at the bigger picture in my life, it doesn't revolve around you anymore.
my family, my friends.
in some ways or another, I begin to see I don't deserve all these entrapment.
maybe it's all better to end it now than later.
I'm sorry if I dragged it for 24hours since yesterday till this morning.
well, I know I sucked.
with, and also without you.
if I ever remembered, character difference is way too convinient a reason.

maybe all of us have ended in the last 6 years ago.
how silly to not take the signs!
I don't know what else to put to words already.
like, maybe you will find a way better girl for yourself and I a better guy?
oh gosh, come on.
maybe I'll just speak to you again 2 years down the road?
yeah. maybe.
you made me realised some things in life that are worth my attention and some, unfortunately, not.
I don't think I'm worth it to you too.
about the toying part, I'd never once believe it. up to you to believe me or not luh, it's useless. lols.
and really, thanks for continuing those unnecessary conversation, I had just woken up from it. and that is why I writing this.

oh how I missed school days.
and really, I don't know why I gave a shit writing all of these.
but I won't start counting down to nothing stupidly again, like the 2009 me.
find yourself someone that suits you more but never promise her anything.
because in the end, you took not her body but her entire soul (: