gone.

i had a feeling i could be losing her for good anytime.

following up, i came to realised i abhor people imitating.
like hello? be original.
there's surely something you guys can come up with with your capability, if you consider yourself to have one, rather than being copycats.
in terms of dressing, hairdo, actions or even writings.
its kinda irriated me ttm already.
okay la, maybe people aint bothered to even imitate you but well, how can it be not?
i dont think people get what i mean but thats what i meant.
dont wanna spell it out lest these offend people.

i know im not perfect in any ways but well.
i must have sound arrogant in here, but reflect people.
gosh, whatever luh.
its seriously freaking irritating lor.
(zzz)

ohoh. and i really disagree with sardine's stand.
i regretted thoroughly organizing this gathering.
and i dont think people remain the same as before.
i never felt more stranger with this class.
some friends that i thought will stay the same, didnt.
even a slight change, is change.
or perhaps, if sardine didnt feel they changed, then the change must be in me.
because all along, im not an observant person to start with anyway.
im truly disappointed, its real, not fake okay.
and sometimes being alone may be a better thing?
im saying with a stand of being alone rather than having friends as company. (not being single/attached case)
because there's lesser responsibilities and lesser hypocrtical situations to bear.
most of all, you are the planner, and you're also your company.
no disappointment, no freaking emotional flare-ups.
isnt that way far better?
there's a lack of the "missing" element in our gathering i guess.
you know...?
like "i miss you class! lets meet up?!"
no, nothing of such luh.
waste of my time, when all i do was looking SO forward to the gathering.
(sigh) cant helped it too, its people's decision anyway and you cant really point a gun at their forehead and force things.
cause why, in the end, both parties will only bear hatred and hostility.

maybe i could have alittle more fun if i stayed a little longer,
but i bet it cannot amount to the love i feel just with love's presence?
its not about the boys-over-friends theory, but at least he made me feel my worth and importance then.
well, hate me people, i dont effing care.