for who am i

you know
for all my whole life
there were only 5 guys
5 guys who all told me
when they wanted to woo me
they say they all love me for who I am

I mean, yes! but of course!
im not exceptionally pretty nor smart
and im just funny and witty thats all I could think of
and maybe just tall.
but Im just beginning to think
do they really love me for who I am
when seriously, I dont know who I am.

of course, they were talking about the portrayal of my characters as such and yups I know its obvious im a very easygoing person in person when you see me as YOUR FRIEND

but HELL NO.
I am not like that when im in a hell load of RELATIONSHIP.
right? yeah, im right about me.

im very fussy very princess-y very greeneyed very possessive very calculative
and very very very flawed when im in a relationship.
and thats me.

but 1 fifth of that emerged to really love me for who I am. and im serious.
he not only love me for who I am,
he love me for what I am, how I am, why I am, when I am
and he UNDERSTANDS me
not outside but inside as well.
and I really really am surprised at that thought because
hardly, hardly anyone could reach that level.

I am in A-W-E.

thats why im so in love with my boy now (:
he reads me like a book and I love being my book.


P/S. thats his new toy: wireless headset w mic