RMIT

this is my first ever convocation! no not mine mine but im attending my life's ever first!
I think its a call for celebration not only for that 3/4years of university life and studies that you put in hardwork for but its to commemorate you whole 10years worth of life in working hard thus far!
I definitely think its really worth celebrating (:

im so proud of my friend and just like her I hope my family would be there on that big day too ((:

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NEW PROTECTOR.
MY GUARDIAN.

chio.

Individualism

I guess at the end of the day
or the world as such
we all have our mind of our own
so called.
I guess nobody would want to be manipulated
no one would ever want to live under the shadow of someone else's clutches cause thats just agony to be
so.

handful, or just few, could be the very one or two to befriend and eventually accepts us originally, wholly,
naturally.
not even who is gonna spend his rest of his life with you could be
but what matters is we dont change to live beneath what is ourselves.

because though we are all circumstantial to this world, to this fate
we are living our own lifes.
we are.

escapade

I'd stop posting pics in instagram.
I still do browse them sometimes but I had stop liking or posting per say.
maybe in time I may just ignore instagram the whole lot but yeah, im trying now.
im just escaping so I dont get reminded.




p/s. pizzahut service @bpp is terribly WOLS.

camp ingenium

I will never forget the camaraderie 2years back.
never.



p/s. school starts tomorrow!

this 450th post

the happiest things
the saddest things
the tiring things
the relaxing things
the joyous times
the devastated times
the exciting times
the dull times









I am with you.
I will go back to you.

down the road

idk what has changed.

1year 4mths ago:


now I think I could still craft out the same thing
but maybe not necessarily the same feelings that harboured inside those words.
"try out the first in everything for him" seems like I overestimated myself.

I underestimated my limitations in a rs.

False Evidence Appearing Real: F.E.A.R

"Fear has a large shadow, but he himself is small." -Ruth Gendler

I've been consumed by fear.
ever more so during and after bkk; & I find this quote more apt than ever: "Fear makes strangers of people who would be friends. (Shirley Maclaine)

I keep replaying the 4 days in my head every night before I sleep. keep playing keep replaying. like it wont ever stop haunting me. but yes, I felt utter regretful about how it cannot be just pure sheer happiness and fun and enjoyment. I cannot say he ruin it totally. because I am guilty of it myself. and so affecting the rest too.
and its stucked on replay.


"To fear is one thing. To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another."
-Katherine Paterson, Jacob Have I Loved

and as I searched on the reason why I am succumb to this monster inside me, I realized I let it grew:"Fear cannot take what you do not give it." (Christopher Coan); that yes I fed it faithfully.

I couldnt let it go. I am that obstinate. I am that thats why it could become stronger and better than me. I couldnt let it out. because im giving it a leg to stand.


"Fear is the highest fence."
-Dudley Nichols

and Fear is my feeling asking for a hug.
no, more than once.

for who am i

you know
for all my whole life
there were only 5 guys
5 guys who all told me
when they wanted to woo me
they say they all love me for who I am

I mean, yes! but of course!
im not exceptionally pretty nor smart
and im just funny and witty thats all I could think of
and maybe just tall.
but Im just beginning to think
do they really love me for who I am
when seriously, I dont know who I am.

of course, they were talking about the portrayal of my characters as such and yups I know its obvious im a very easygoing person in person when you see me as YOUR FRIEND

but HELL NO.
I am not like that when im in a hell load of RELATIONSHIP.
right? yeah, im right about me.

im very fussy very princess-y very greeneyed very possessive very calculative
and very very very flawed when im in a relationship.
and thats me.

but 1 fifth of that emerged to really love me for who I am. and im serious.
he not only love me for who I am,
he love me for what I am, how I am, why I am, when I am
and he UNDERSTANDS me
not outside but inside as well.
and I really really am surprised at that thought because
hardly, hardly anyone could reach that level.

I am in A-W-E.

thats why im so in love with my boy now (:
he reads me like a book and I love being my book.


P/S. thats his new toy: wireless headset w mic

you dont have to be in BKK to shop mad..

because there's something call the
MEGA FLEA MARKETS.

im in total support of people selling trendy secondhand stuffs for sure!! at a lower cost will be so much more exciting for shoppeng right!!

me and uni bff will be hitting one of the flea @CTP (shortform in case) and im reeling in excitement!! I hope really

THERE'S GONNA BE FANTASTIC BUYS!

yayyyyyyy here we come! ^^