new

somewhere in other parts of the world,
there are people who happens to be like me.
single.
free.
young.

it doesnt matter how much times we fall,
or had fell.
but we pick ourselves up each time,
stronger, braver.
maybe i had put it the harsh way,
i want it to be.
its harsh but also the shortest and fastest way to erase our good.
when you were away, i asked rational questions.
for once, i thought rationally. i concluded.
#1. i may not really understand you, just like your friends do.
#2. i may not be the one you're looking for.
#3. i may not love you as much as i thought i would be.

it would be selfish to keep you.
it would be best if you hate me.
then i calm down and started all my nonsense just to let you see.
i do not really need us together anymore.
i cannot face a stranger.
i couldnt love a stranger.
thats when i decided, and its not that painful afterall.

im not healing, im healed.
for all the time you're gone, you're already gone.

* * *

ALRIGHT, NOW FOR THE THINGS I NEED TO GET/DO:

#1. roxy ruffles bikini @95$ (orchardcentral)
#2. get down to the beach, suntan and read novels
#3. attend exercises/event/outings
#4. pass my driving
#5. get a car
#6. TAIWAN TAIWAN TAIWAN

gosh, i feel so alive.
i'll do what i do for year1 sem1.
and discreetly, blessing my eyecandy who has been ever since i stepped into uni.
(: