the "did-my-best" thing.

they always say everything happens for a reason.
and its because of the many reasons, things so did happen.
i remember that bit*h gp tutor said a very true thing,
its easier to work hard for someone else than for yourself.
the motivation works better and more effective that way.
something that i totally agreed with her, and probably the only thing i did.
yes, j1 i started dozing off in math lecture. gave myself an excuse that the lecture hall is actually one hypnotizing place, whenever i walked in, there's this aura that would push me to sleep.
alright, thats really an excuse now i looked back and trying to blog this.
then yes, physics isnt really exactly the type of interesting subject too. and what's worst is they get all the lkk lecturers to lecture on every other more important topics, those really major ones.
then what's left for ladies to do when our eyes are deprived of pleasant things to look at other than staring at all those lkk guy lecturer standing infront of the whole cohore, we started to practise oral i guess?
so, there goes physics lecture each time.

so my foundation is almost without its base right from the start.
plus being blinded and clouded at such a young age is really what pains me.
i was freaking dumb enough to go into a relationship which comes to an end sooner than i thought.
so delete that part of time, effort and youth,
maybe my alevels grades would be much more satisfying.
and everything dates and boils back to my immaturity and freaking damaged brain, not being able to think ahead.

so what really dawned on me is that,
the "did-my-best" thing?
no such thing.