selfless, or just selfish?

yesterday, it was almost like the worst day of my life.
i got into 2 arguments straight in a day.
and i got so heated up that easily, thinking back, i really must have been pms-ing.
the first argument was with love, and it really felt like my world tore apart.
it was really a frightening moment, and i allowed myself to present my most weakest side of me.
utter disgust, and disappointment of myself.
nevertheless, things went fine after that.
but this was not the worst i got yet.
i got home, got into a really heated argument with my bro.
something that was actually nothing, but i guessed it was me who fussed things up.
it became a big deal.
&& bro hit me on the arm, following a tight slap for me when i provoked him to.
and seriously, i was damn shocked.
i shouted at him, louder than anyone could imagine.
i scolded him right at my mom's and his face. other than vulgarities, all the crude words i could think of were sprouted then.
then it went on even after my dad came home shortly.
it was 2plus in the morning.
it ceased, finally.
got to bed, but it was with tears, again.

but i really regretted what i sprouted out in a moment of anger.
i really do.
i knew that deep down, i must have hurt him equally hard like the slap had on me too.

haiya, bad day it is.

P/S. i bought two nail polish and duo eyeshadow this week! $$ fly-away!