没有所谓的牺牲

只有所谓的值得

the monster is here round the corner

EXAMS IN 1WEEK'S TIME.
URGENT--URGENCY

i need relief!

threatened

threatened by threats
all sorts

outrageous heft of endless shifts

thats why it amount to all the pimples on ma face for past damn days.
and boo hoo hoo
sims2 is not working on my lappy.
and i want a macbook too.
well, consider that a blessing in disguise.
finals coming and guess what?
year 3 is zooming in.
thats how time breaks us,
thats how time eats us,
thats how time makes us all age with time.

yawns.

i decided to review recorded lecture today for BU8501.
and i found out, wow.
accumulation of 3 good lectures!
thats 1.5h+1.5h+1.5h=4.5h of crazy draining biz lectures.
cool, im down with one.
2 to go.

oh ya.
there's something extra on my finger these days.
it bound my middle finger.
it adds a little more weight and restrict freedom of movement.
abit uneasy a little while.
but you know.
its a circular, its a cycle.
i cannot remove it.
it spells eternity.

alright, gotta carry on with lectures since sims2 is such disappointment.
its original somemore.
damn.
work hard peeps.
university as such man.

cheers.

abhorrence of present state

WE KEEP QUARRELING.
WE JUST KEEP ON DOING THIS EVERY NOWHERE.
THE LOATHE AND DISGUST FOR EVERY PERPETUAL RECURRING STATE?
THEY INCREASES,EXPONENTIALLY EACH TIME THIS FCKING GOD HAPPENS.
NO BUT WHY?
ITS ENDLESS. E-V-E-R-Y-T-I-M-E.

I HATE BEING IN ONE. BECAUSE IM ABNORMAL.
YES, JUST THAT.
OKAY. IM JUST SELFISH FOR WANTING THE WHOLE FCKING WORLD TO MYSELF BOY.
INCLUDING YOU, AND ROBBING TIME WITH YOUR PRECIOUS OTHERS THIS 21ST OF YOURS.
THANKS FOR REALLY SACRIFICING AND NO THANKS TO EVERY TIME SPENT WITH YOU ON ALL FCKUP WEEKENDS.

WITH OR WITHOUT,
I CANNOT AFFORD A RELATIONSHIP.
IM FCKING BROKE IN ALL MENTAL/INTELLECT/EMOTION/LOGIC ASPECTS OF A FCKING SOMEONE YOU CALL YOUR 'GIRLFRIEND'.

NOT WORTHY OF A SINGLE SHIT TO FCKING YOU.

2YEARS FROM THEN AND 2YEARS FROM NOW,
WHAT FCKING GOD DOES IT HELP CHANGE
THE US NOW?
NONONO.
DONT REMIND ME.

THAT I FCKING DONT REGRET THE CHOICE MADE NOW AND THEN.
FCK IT FOR BEING ME.
FCK IT FOR TRUSTING LOVE.
FCK IT FOR MEETING YOU AGAIN.

hahaha.
so much so for loving you.

脱苦海

在她那微弱的躯体
苦海
脱不了

快零零碎碎乐

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