abhorrence of present state

WE KEEP QUARRELING.
WE JUST KEEP ON DOING THIS EVERY NOWHERE.
THE LOATHE AND DISGUST FOR EVERY PERPETUAL RECURRING STATE?
THEY INCREASES,EXPONENTIALLY EACH TIME THIS FCKING GOD HAPPENS.
NO BUT WHY?
ITS ENDLESS. E-V-E-R-Y-T-I-M-E.

I HATE BEING IN ONE. BECAUSE IM ABNORMAL.
YES, JUST THAT.
OKAY. IM JUST SELFISH FOR WANTING THE WHOLE FCKING WORLD TO MYSELF BOY.
INCLUDING YOU, AND ROBBING TIME WITH YOUR PRECIOUS OTHERS THIS 21ST OF YOURS.
THANKS FOR REALLY SACRIFICING AND NO THANKS TO EVERY TIME SPENT WITH YOU ON ALL FCKUP WEEKENDS.

WITH OR WITHOUT,
I CANNOT AFFORD A RELATIONSHIP.
IM FCKING BROKE IN ALL MENTAL/INTELLECT/EMOTION/LOGIC ASPECTS OF A FCKING SOMEONE YOU CALL YOUR 'GIRLFRIEND'.

NOT WORTHY OF A SINGLE SHIT TO FCKING YOU.

2YEARS FROM THEN AND 2YEARS FROM NOW,
WHAT FCKING GOD DOES IT HELP CHANGE
THE US NOW?
NONONO.
DONT REMIND ME.

THAT I FCKING DONT REGRET THE CHOICE MADE NOW AND THEN.
FCK IT FOR BEING ME.
FCK IT FOR TRUSTING LOVE.
FCK IT FOR MEETING YOU AGAIN.

hahaha.
so much so for loving you.