validation

normal as it seems, but not always for everyone. i learnt a hard way to not get trapped in the self-proving and validation-seeking from others, especially in social media. so often than not, i find myself looking at the no. of likes and thinking if the captions and angle of the photos were ever good enough. just to get recognized, assured, relevant etc. but all these were nothing more than just a facade, illusion, virtual reality.

i used to write or blog not having to find someone read them. it was alright. writing is writing itself. writing heals oneself. well, now posting status updates, tweets and photo instagram are gratifying enough to know that we had someone as audience to view and to please. it was hard to kick the habit, but it was even harder to find what was lost. ourselves.

i hide some people from my ig stories and i realized, i dont post much anymore. the feeling’s great, but could have fed something else onto something else. but nonetheless, it feels great. really. to not satisfy others or wanting self validate from these mediums. these are all nothing but fake.

so it is to life.

lets just not use such approaches, even if the rotw are doing it. and even so, lets just be us.
if we ever forget and got lost again, let us come back here someday and realize again that we do not need these stuffs.

we are self sufficient, we are we.