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说散就散

 

作词：张楚翘
作曲：伍乐城

抱一抱 就当作从没有在一起
好不好 要解释都已经来不及
算了吧 我付出过什么没关系
我忽略自己 就因为遇见你

没办法 好可怕 那个我 不像话
一直奋不顾身 是我太傻

说不上爱别说谎 就一点喜欢
说不上恨别纠缠 别装作感叹
就当作我太麻烦 不停让自己受伤
我告诉我自己 感情就是这样
怎么一不小心太疯狂

抱一抱 再好好觉悟不能长久
好不好 有亏欠我们都别追究
算了吧 我付出再多都不足够
我终于得救 我不想再献丑

没办法 不好吗 大家都 不留下
一直勉强相处 总会累垮

说不上爱别说谎 就一点喜欢
说不上恨别纠缠 别装作感叹
就当作我太麻烦 不停让自己受伤
我告诉我自己 感情就是这样
怎么一不小心太疯狂

别后悔 就算错过
在以后 你少不免想起我
还算不错
当我不在你会不会难过
你够不够我这样洒脱

说不上爱别说谎 就一点喜欢
说不上恨别纠缠 别装作感叹
将一切都体谅 将一切都原谅
我尝试找答案 而答案很简单
简单得很遗憾
因为成长 我们逼不得已要习惯
因为成长 我们忽尔间说散就散

to live is the rarest thing thing in the world. most people exist, that is all.

you know, i saw quote on ig or fb that goes something like: people gonna say shit about you irregardless and we just dont have to give a damn.

ya, we dont have to.

we gonna live our lifes, not for theirs.

falling into places

met ahboy during his lunch time to HFC to take a look with the hotel staff yesterday.
she was really nice and explained to us some stuffs about the package.
another couple was also eyeing on that date but had an alternative one.
after her explanation and tour, we thought ya, why not? it seems like a decent place and deposit is manageable as well.
just that we were worried the couple might want the same date as well.
不知道什麼好運，THANK GOD, the couple will have theirs on 5jan19 so we got it!

after that i realized from ahboy that, i guess the hotel staff told the other couple that we’ve already paid the deposit and they have no choice but to shift their date. but to us, its conveyed that the couple is very nice and let us have the venue.
wah really, this world 真真假假，really 真假難分。

anyway, we got our venue!! really happy and load off the mind.

lets drift and wait for ROM date, pleasepleaseplease.

all the possibilities

there are so many things swarming in at once.
suddenly we are looking out for flats near Bangkit.
same area, just across the streets.

actually I like Bangkit side more, noisier hahaha
ironically, when we are trying to search for a more natural/quiet flats in the vicinity.
to not drag us flat, maybe a 4-room is viable too.
thinking of all the possibilities, like asking my parents to stay over, taking care of my child etc.

its like not too soon, but neither is it too far ahead.

***

we are on 1st waitlist of hotel fort canning.
if not, Friday's visit there would be cancelled.
not really sure if this is the one but lets keep our options open.
waiting for the rest to reply on their availability with our date.

cant wait for all these to be over tbh.
but right now, lets just drift and see.

我要好好做人

we might not have much but we will work harder.
to repay all the indebtedness that we received.

dates just given to us last night!
1st: 15 Dec
2nd: 8 Dec

brick, leaves, breath.

TIONG BAHRU MARKET

lor mee & jian bo chee kueh.

TIONG BAHRU ESTATE

 

(I took this of myself. hahahah)

THE CAT MUSEUM

 

reminds me of rudolph & rourou when they were as young as 3 weeks old (:
thank you for living and bringing cuteness to people's faces.

Chinatown with my folks for dinner yesterday.

you know, this is very much (a)life for me.

Afresh

ashamed. then afresh.

working hard for the future now. must.

偷故事的人

I was on the way to work today.
it was on the bus again, as usual. filled with students and sleepyheads.
the radio was playing one of Jolin Tsai's older song back in my prisch days.

a sudden emotion gushed up and welled my eyes.
am I really marrying?
to a guy whom I knew my entire life..

was it us who were fated, or was it fate that was fated?

I smiled at myself and felt grateful at the same time.

my phone was playing this song then, and there were many flashbacks on how painful and hurtful this relationship once was. melancholic
but beautiful that it turned out this way.



***

these 3 days have been wonderful because humblebrag is not HERE.
yay!!!!

I mean I shouldn't because of a mere being and let it affect me.
but it does affect my mood at work.
I feel lighter and happier.

now I know what it meant to have negativity, fake and toxic people out of the way.

life is good this way.

will only see her on Friday cos I will be on leave TOMORROW. YAYAYAYAYAYY.

表裡不一

有些人深怕爱情
伤过哭过痛过累过
所以不碰爱情

有些人深怕爱情
一样伤过哭过痛过累过
但却执着执迷不放弃

还是
二者之间
徘徊着
恐惧和前进
然後還是
恐懼和前進

可怕的不是愛情
害怕的卻是你

life’s a checklist

YAYAYAYAY

it is important to me.
my parents gave me their blessings.

he talked to my dad about it and it came like a natural thing. i went to shower while they were talking about it. & i am so glad that i dont have to listen to, if any, cringey stuffs haha.

tomorrow there is a flat viewing at panjang but i wont be joining him. his dad will be viewing it with him for the units at blk 203. not sure which tho, cause there are 2 available ones for sale at that particular block. i cannot imagine how fast things progress.
i wanna have my parents stay over with us too.
the summer will be too hot and i want them to have aircon.

next week we will go for the site recce with the various shortlisted venues.

it seems like a packed year. i cant even really work nowadays. hahaha

NEED TO FOCUS!

Mixed

seeing how I much I revisit this memory dairy of mine, it seems like this time I have something big in life to announce.

it feels surreal, that I might be getting married just this year.
but I felt like a mix.
I feel scared, worried and unsettled.

maybe that's what they call the real jitters.

that all of a sudden, the child in me is growing, up.
that marriage and starting a family seems like a decade later thing suddenly pounce on me.
not uncaught, but rather, just the feeling itself, surreal?

my engagement ring was bought last year 29th Dec, if im not wrong. (haha)
but I thought, it wouldn't be this year.

then again, fate has it.

on the side note, the ring might not be much in others' eyes.
it might not be the most unique or special ever designed ring.
but it is something I like. love, in fact.
and more importantly, he put it on me.

I guess, the symbolic meaning behind it, meant much more than its price could have measured.

so well, I hope my parents don't get a shock this Friday.
I hope they give us their blessings.
I hope all is well.



***

ah ma, it might be a little late for us in real life.
but I hope you witness this above.
I hope you are not suffering.

I hope you are relieved, that I am getting married.
that I still miss you very much.

and I believe, behind all the everyday wonders of the sky, are the works of you and the rest above.