Day 9: Adjustment

had a long day bbq-ing for foc.
i couldnt really say it was fun cause i got pissed when bbq-ing.
and also simply because, all the faces there?
reminds me of him.
i felt a little suffocated and that baggage of burdened feeling came back yesterday,
i escaped from the crowd which feeds my lonliness at that moment,
so, i left with my friend to somewhere further.

i woke up today having sore throat, tiredness,
and fear.
i hate fear.
totally.
if there's one thing i need to kill,
that would be my innermost fear.

damn.