further along the road less travelled

im having this emotional fluctuations recently.
i suspect YLL.
meaning, 要来了.
and all the more when its about 1week later that he's gonna fly off to somewhere dark and far away.

ITS GODAMN ONE WEEK LATER.
AND GODAMN THREE WEEKS AWAY.

good. very good.
how great is this feeling?
tell me, how to control that freaking upset feeling?
no, not control. but curb.
how? how not to feel reluctant?
how not to feel empty?
how not to feel, when we are all only humans?
good. very good.

haiya.
why do i feel so fuck up now.
zzz.

i better be busy.