忙

been busy.
really busy.
meetups and cca alone has taken up much of my holidays.
im not complaining.
im just glad there's something that keeps me occupied.
there's even work too.
i got the feeling that i dont have enough rest and the precious peaceful sleep that i'd longed for.
i had a sort of nightmare last night, or this morning around 4:43am.
i woke up, not startled, but calmly.
and i was too composed i started pondering why i even had such grotesque and murderous dream.
i tried to shrugged off the dream but i related it to my tutee the morning later.
it was beyond composure anymore.
its too traumatising for me in my dream.
i was practically staring at the particular incident that happened concurrently side by side.
it was too much to take that i woke up, gently.
and then pushing myself to sleep again.
no.
it wasnt because of nightmares that i didnt get the rest i wanted.
its just that im exhausted.
more of like 元气大伤 kind?
i couldnt find my energy anywhere after half a day.
i wonder how i'd to survive ingenium camp.
and now at this godly hour, im still not sleeping but blogging.
i just got home and my hair's still not dry after my bath.
i just keep getting outta home this week.
for work and for play, definitely.

is this what it is like being 20?