因为太爱自己 所以无法完全爱你

maybe im too selfish.
maybe im too self-centred.
maybe im a narcissist.
maybe i love myself too much,
that i've forgotten how to love somebody else.

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how long more can this go on?
how long more can this drag?
how long more can this sustain?

I FCKING HATE THIS FEELING.
I FCKING HATE THIS LIFE NOW.
I FCKING HATE THIS.

AND I FCKING WANT TO GO TO LOOK AT THE SEA.
I WANT SERENITY.
I FCKING WANT TO ESCAPE.
I FCKING WANT TO LEAVE.
I FCKING WANT A BREAK.
NOW.
NOW.
FCKINGLY NOW!!!!

CAN YOU PLS STOP DOING THIS TO ME!!
SINCE WHEN DID I BECOME FCKING CAREFUL WITH MY WORDS!!
WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT FROM ME!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!
WHAT THE FUCK DO I NEED SUCH A LIFE!!

CAN YOU JUST PLEASE GRANT ME DEATH, NOW!!!!!!!

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