perhaps we have different expectations altogether.
maybe we have different ideals.
afterall, we are different.

i find myself facing this constantly but i really hate being disappointed.
alright, i cannot rule out the fact that maybe it wasnt a really good idea to continue lingering on the thought that i could stay out late when i know i shouldnt and people will be angry and most likely worried as well.
simply, maybe you meant well, because there have been too much instances that i've jeopardised the situation. i know. but giving the false sense of hope that i could really get to see you yesterday, seems so firm and determined etcetc and then later on tell me otherwise bla bla bla. im not interested in hearing whatnots. just tell me you want me there or you dont. but we couldnt figure out an answer so i decided to head home. feeling tremendous regret, anger and foolishly, disappointed.

maybe you really meant well.

but i was bearing the hope you could do something more.
meetups with you really mean something very very important to me.
but how could you take it lightly like everyone else would do?
you would love to meet me doesnt conveniently equate to really seeing me physically.
oh damn.

its a week already.
it doesnt make a difference if this carries on isnt it?
we have different ideals and priorities i guess :)