major butterflies.

love v. affection v. like v. interest v. admiration v. infatuation.

i cant really differentiate them all anymore.
people keep saying im acting reckless here.
i think i am too.
but i cant help it(-.-)
seriously, i wish gemini could just stop searching and plunging in so deeply in an instant.
haiya, i dont even know whats wrong with me.
but i know im mad vexed now.
there's this conflicting thing in me.
it mixes, it grinds and it churns continously in me.
idk whats right to do, and whats not.
i feel im standing at this grey area(again),
because i can hardly read him.
im preparing and in the process of calm-ing myself already, but then he pops up again and steals the calmness away from my heart.

ARGHH.
i wish i could just drop dead.


谁闯进我的场地 谁让我措手不及
我早就预备的剧情 你却给我一笔
狡猾地 致命地正中我红心

P/S. im like reaching home @after 9pm everyday. the fact is idk what im busy about.