you have to decide if its worth to keep throwing your heart at their feet, so that they can walk all over it one more time.

Sunday, April 25, 2010
move on to what will surely be better territory.

'he's just not into you if he's not asking you out, because if he likes you, trust me, he will ask you out.'
'men find it satisfying to get what they want. if we want you, we will find you. if you dont think you gave him enough time to notice you, take the time it took you to notice him and divide it by half.'
'just because you like to lead doesnt mean he wants to dance. some traditions are born of nature and last through time for a reason.'
'dont get tricked into asking him out. if he likes you, he'll do the asking.'
'men dont forget how much they like you. so put down the phone.'


Monday, April 26, 2010
over and out.

'he's just not that into you if he's not dating you. hanging out is not dating.'
'ok, there seem to be so many variations to dating, particularly in the early stages of a relationship. so many gray, murky areas of vagueness, mystery, and no questions asked. dudes love this time because thats when they get to pretend they're not really responsible for your feelings. when you ask someone out on a real bonafide date, you're making it official: i'd like to see you alone to find out if we have a romantic future together. in case you need more clues: there's usually a public excursion, a meal, and some hand-holding involved.'

he's just not so into you.
wake up wake up wake up.

the second death.

'when a baby comes into the world, its hands are clenched.
why? because a baby, not knowing any better, wants to grab everything, to say, "the whole world is mine".
but when an old person dies, how does he do so?
with his hands open. why? because he learned the lesson.
what lesson?'

'we can take nothing with us.'

P/S. getting a fourth novel soon. and you, maybe long gone by then.

in between.

SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.SAVE ME.

P/S. dont make me revert to my old ways.

i go back in time all the time.

so tired these days,
that nothing came through my mind,
but only you.

how can i stop this?
so sensitive with words starting with that alphabet.

heading to UOL's bash later on.
sigh.


P/S.
These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving,
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
Realized that I loved you in the fall.
Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind.
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye.

all the time.

雨下过以后是否能让什么复活。

tell me how easy is it to give up.

forget yesterday.

我累了。
真的累了。

this is stupid.
square one.


P/S.
有人说,
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死,
而是我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你。

dive for dreams.

having done with 'eat,pray,love' novel really puts me into emptiness, again.
it feels rightfully wrong to be walking around without a novel alongside with me.
had a browse through popular @cck today.
and two books caught my attention, of which one stands alone. there were no other duplicates of that anywhere.
so i took "have a little faith" and "charlie st.cloud" on my hands, while greedily in search of other interesting novels.
in the end, i chose ben sherwood over mitch albom. (just for a change. i swear i'll get that too, SOON.)
excited like a little girl, i unwrapped the novel with much care.

alright, im on my way to another spiritual trip.
at least reading provides a escapade for me self.

&& the sole reason why i dont borrow from the library when it seems a little more economical for students,
i like to own my own books.

yes, because if i cant have what i want in other aspects, at least i want to have the books i can call my very own.

P/S. there is a land of the living and a land of the dead and the bridge is love, the only survival, the only meaning.
-thornton wilder

(cant think of a nicer title now)

几天的闷热换来的只有那几分钟的雨。

i cant really do it chinese!

今天我的中文系好友让我看了她的博客。
真的。
用华文来blog是一件截然不同的经验。
在她的post里，我看到了。
其实华文也可像英文那样，生动的把情感表达出来。
当然的，华文根本就不在英文之下！

其实，我并非超爱华文的。
虽然华文对我而言，是一科自小学直到高中都能名列前茅的科目，但我却没有怎么地被它而感动到。
直到。。

我来到南大中文系里。
我被一群朋友渲染了。
真的真的，被深深地触动到了。
当下，其实我也被自己的想法吓倒了。

在这群好友之间，我看到了真正对华文华语的热诚，真诚对待。
说真的，他们简直就是我的推动力！
当然的，我是无法想像，更加无法和我们彼此之间作比较的！
说是惭愧，也太简捷肤浅了。
可能是羞愧之心吧； 本身在中文系但却对华文“不忠”“不义”。

但是回想起来，能在中文系里，
又遇到一群志同道合的朋友，
这么的热爱华文，把它当成宿命；
这可能是我这生中做件最对的事吧！
不潜移，也默化了。
（虽然一开始时一心只想放弃。。 T.T）

因为他们，我渐渐爱上中文。
(especially HC201:)
我会以他们为榜样！
大家加油！！

哈哈！我花了满久的时间把这章写出！

P/S. 夕阳无限好，只限近黄昏。

Death is perhaps the best invention of Life.

this is the best thing i have read.
by Shaleen Mathur on Monday, September 27, 2010 at 9:09pm.

The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid-term exam. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well...

Here is the "Bonus Question" on the exam: "Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?"

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving.


As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different Religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.

With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially.


Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and

pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added. This gives two possibilities:


1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.


So which is it? If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa (a girlfriend of mine during my Freshman year) that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you", and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over.


The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct...leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."


THIS STUDENT RECEIVED THE ONLY "A."

when faith and logic/reason conflicts, he had beautifully incorporated the two altogether.

(14 Mar) Edited above sentence: When faith is injected with pun/humor and an intimate relationship of our daily life, it makes our life easier.

this is what everyone has come here for.

what made me fell in, and then out, was exactly the same thing:
practicality.

"you may return here once you fully come to understand that you are always here."
eventually, bliss will find you.

P/S. its better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody's else life with perfection.
-the Bhagavad Gita (eat,pray,love)

im so enlightened these days, every day.
i love this.
spiritually fulfilling.
&& im going school early, very early, to sit @that particular place,
just novel and me and enlightenment.
sitting amongst the crowd and feel only my being there.
i love no other than it this way(:

sometimes the best way to get over someone is to get under someone.

time pass by so fast even when j'étudie.
grant me 72hours a day please.

i need time. more time.

P/S. the only place the mind will ever find peace is inside the silence of the heart.

she will be able to love again.

met sardine for late dinner after both out tuition ends @gombak.
i ordered 2bowls of porridge for myself, and the dishes were twice the serving as well. they even gave me two pairs of utensils. AWESOME.
was f hungryyyyyyyyyyy.

then some dumb situation began.
some dumbass from the char-grill store came towards our table.
i thought some uncle wanted to order our drinks/some free cheesefries coming our way when we didnt even order in the first place.
then this very jeune dumbass said a very bad pick-up line for his friend hiding cowardly at the stall, for my phone number.
then being such a dumbass myself,i replied;
"i dont have a phone."
he laughed bitterly to himself and me off to getting both sardine and my drinks.

perhaps they didnt really get to see my height thats why they had the courage to pick me up.
and they cant see through my practical self.

sigh, whats wrong.
they had the same pick-up line as when im in prisch.

im glad its over.

P/S. i will catch eat,pray,love alone soon!
&& so excited about tomorrow and all the peeps who are showing up! :D:D

eat, pray, love.

its gone(:

P/S. pursuit of pleasure, devotion and balance. after then, she is able to love again.

its the emotional recoil that kills you.

p/s: Uni is crazy
-bubblylaughterz

yeah.
uni is hell crazy.

借这场大雨让自己逃走

连想你都是种残酷切磋
我又何苦 在乎得不到的温柔
留不住回忆 却学不会放手 怎么走

major butterflies.

love v. affection v. like v. interest v. admiration v. infatuation.

i cant really differentiate them all anymore.
people keep saying im acting reckless here.
i think i am too.
but i cant help it(-.-)
seriously, i wish gemini could just stop searching and plunging in so deeply in an instant.
haiya, i dont even know whats wrong with me.
but i know im mad vexed now.
there's this conflicting thing in me.
it mixes, it grinds and it churns continously in me.
idk whats right to do, and whats not.
i feel im standing at this grey area(again),
because i can hardly read him.
im preparing and in the process of calm-ing myself already, but then he pops up again and steals the calmness away from my heart.

ARGHH.
i wish i could just drop dead.


谁闯进我的场地 谁让我措手不及
我早就预备的剧情 你却给我一笔
狡猾地 致命地正中我红心

P/S. im like reaching home @after 9pm everyday. the fact is idk what im busy about.

若有人可以, 让她陪你.

我不应该。

no one.

how easy is it to melt the ice within me.

怎麼能 輕易就放它走.

ever had the feeling whereby you look for that someone when he's online and you somewhat accompany him on your side?
and whenever he's not online, you dont feel like online-ing as well; not wanting to look at the screen any further.


我不想解脫
我只怕錯過.

雨和天空也有相愛的可能.

當古文明只剩下難解的語言.

P/S. happy birthday mummy, happy POP.

hanging between us is just vacuum.

i wore specs to school aujourd'hui.
no big deal.

i had vampire eyes for 3 consecutive days already.
thats big deal.