do you know.

if nothing happens,
it still amounts to nothing.

when i was strolling with my parents behind me,
there's a lot in mind.
but somehow, when i got home, everything just flushes away.
and then, someone is stucked there in my mind.
wouldnt go away no matter how much i shove that image away.

but the constant reminder of my past, is there.
thats where, and why,
i stand alone everytime.
it just flashes back and haunt me.
im moving on, already!!

but this new someone is the only one that can encourage me to let the past go.
and then,
i let it all go.

but how easy is it all gonna be?
im just afraid.

because if nothing happens,
it just amounts to nothing.



P/S. its not him la.

* * *

all the while, im searching for my real self.
im struggling to know who i really am, who im out to be.
the walls i built, the sarcastic words i sprout,
was it really me?
im tired.
tired of searching me.

should start leading life that can be called mine.
tired of satisfying social equations.
dont you?