bbpigg got his 3 other jabs today.
the first was when he was about a month old.

ya, i know bb take jab should stay at home.
ya i know cannot go out. immunity is not instantaneous.
ya i know.

but hey, my parents and aunts want to see him.
i am bringing him to ANOTHER HOME.
not outside jalan jalan.
why cannot?

isit your home is cleaner than other’s?
or what?
why both of you had the same thinking?
why me and my dad had the same thinking?

the thing is,
im not exposing him to the outside world.
yes, you can argue my parents and aunts all v dirty, got germs on them all.
but please, i think bb dad is more dirty? and toxic? with all the smoke?

convince me please.

對的時間，點。

生活刻琢了容顔 天真被逐漸刪減
人們將負累都歸咎於時間
然而成熟能成全 果實它該有的甜
只為時間慫恿季節的改變
信誓旦旦的宣言 色調會逐年變淺
人們將缺憾都怪罪於時間
然而成長到成年 淚痕之所以復原
只為時間稀釋傷感的根源

如果 愛情是場遠程的渦旋
儘管繞著圈子 也要走向前
不離心太遠
我要面朝最藍的 晴天
不脫離軌道 有你在身邊

如果 生命是場寂寞的渦旋
不管千迴百轉 方向不會偏
起飛前看一眼 每張我愛過的臉
每個交錯和無緣 都在潛意識挑選
對的時間點

從前未來的關聯 拉開記憶才明顯
你我都出現在最好的時間
不然相逢到相連 為何像有過預演
只為時間是串起兩人的線

如果愛情是場遠程的渦旋
儘管繞著圈子 也要走向前
不離心太遠
我要面朝最藍的 晴天
不脫離軌道 有你在身邊

如果 生命是場寂寞的渦旋
不管千迴百轉 方向不會偏
起飛前看一眼 每張我愛過的臉
每個交錯和無緣 都在潛意識挑選
對的時間點

why

sometimes i feel we are not the priority
you could save other photos
other strangers photos
but not your own son's

after 5 sentences

i actually feel angry now.

SIGH.

what can i still say

HOME

yay counter nego and we got our flat!
450k for 1319sqft

i cannot wait!! best news comes unexpectedly, after so long!

we can give bbpigg a home soon <3 p="">

Emotional Blackmail

times like this
i would take up my pen to write in my diary
or gave myself a faster way
to pop over here and getaway

constantly trapped in my emotional blackmail
his emotional blackmailing
why is this a circle i cant seems to get out

i thought the last time was the end of all these struggles
i could put those behind
i want to live up to my words
you and i said we wont do it again

dreams are so real and vivid when you are pregnant
i wasnt looking out for a deviation from what we last promised

sorry

you broke it

should i've known?

i cried so hard yesterday
was i pitying myself
or was i trying to move on
i think i could do that for the sake of my child
i think maybe the rest really doesnt matter

its not cheating
its hiding
and am i suppose to let live
because ultimately it happened and it will happen again
knowing that i cannot pass myself
to accept it

should i've known?

or should i been in the dark
then it would have been simpler

would i've prefer that way?


im gonna live my life my way

2019

‘Every year is the same. Time is just a construct.’

yeah, new year, definitely old me. 

this year and the many more to come,

i dont need to be rich. 

i just wanna be happy. 

just like an inherent child’s nature. 

to be happy. 

and everyone else who matters, or human race in all parts of the world,

i wish they find happiness at the end of a misery.

no matter how hard it is to get there, i wish that you find peace and happiness within.

thats all that matters. 

at the end of all these decades of life,

we be happy. 

Happy 2019, so they call it. 

T-26