tanglement

camp's finally over.
cant believe how much shits i suffered and managed to tank the whole 5days.
i wouldnt say im really impressed of myself,
just very taxing on my part sometimes.

my ahma has been hospitalised for almost half a month.
her illness relapsing is really draining both physically and financially for my parents. it really hurts to see that.

and totally. my eldest brother got into an accident for driving too fast and smashing onto the boulder of the highway. what luck. and really.
what else can i say. just lucky he escaped death and unharmed.
so much for being mature and all.
i gave up.

i gave my mummy 50$ because we managed to get GST voucher from the state.
way to go to save up for gradtrip and all!

besides all these worries,
i still have my year3 sem1 modules to desperately worry about.
really pray and hope the new personnel could help me get what i need to study.
damn it on my lousy skills on starwars.
gonna ask my friend's bro to help out next semester.
really.

thats all.
visiting my ahma tomorrow again with mummy after her work.
going to vivo alone first to try using up my f21 voucher.

where have the times gone

3 more weeks to CACFOC2012.

ding ding ding ding

headache on a saturday.
busy max w foc.
ARGH

正觉

君子不重则不威
我们的行为，一举一动要自重
讲话，一言一行要自重
处世，一事一物要自重
人生，一时一刻要自重
人若不自尊自重，人格也失去重量，也很难要求得到别人的尊重。

人格就好像是窗户，一格一格的，超出范围就不成格。

-星云大师

HFD to my father at home

why is there a stark difference

何时怜悯的心往体内钻

她梦中的你们
依然如姐妹情深

却般不可思议

因为
她开始在想
有些人
越来越不可以叫做
朋友

快乐没有那么单纯

要逃离一切
只需要自己一个人的存在而已

快乐并不是因为一天的好事
就此下定论
而是有永无止境
从出生到今天到死去
快乐的多少
快乐的深浅
快乐的长短

没有

因为衣食住行
保暖温饱齐全
就应该快乐、应该知足

没有

没落的荒岛
你们是虚无
我倒是不配
快乐或幸福
你们应拥有
我倒无所谓

没有

我没有
也更加
不配有