our fears

i guess

no matter how much abhorrence one bears against another being

when faced with a common fear

we could still set aside differences

and gave words of encouragement

thats what i did yesterday

knowing someone trembling in fear

even tho i didnt like her

i told her things i would say to a friend in need

as a being 

i think we should be more than ourselves

we should be able to differentiate 

hatred for some characteristics/flaws

but never for circumstances

that could happen to anyone

i cannot say i am proud of myself

but i can say

i grow

i grew

***

i had a minor sprain yesterday HAHAHA

every day will shine with positivity, if only you let yourself have it.

do we really wanna know some things that we hold contempt to

dreaded. at 3.5 years into this job, am i really tired of it,
or am i dreading of its bleak prospect?
or what?

more of it
i question my existence being here
sometimes im just so sick

will i stay here for good?
if really i wanna be a mum soon
maybe...

well, isit time for me to say
leave it to fate...?