心在哪 成功就在哪

成绩放榜
我还是一样
只是有个“优减”
还不愧努力过
也可能没有
无论是什么
还满庆幸的

因为我可以两者兼顾
爱情
学业
这是让我开心的

我希望
这能维续
学业也一样

要开始相信
仅如此罢了

P/S.生日礼物，如何开口。

side walk

how much more should i do?

may/mayday/mumday

tomorrow marks the end of my year2 sem2 exams.
kinda excited now but perhaps not more tomorrow.
cause i will be crashing down with cacfoc stuffs to buzz with.
aint that excited no more i guess.
someone's gonna breathe down my neck soon.
but there's more awaiting like my birthday?
nah, not that grand or anticipating though. just saying.
but then. again, graduation seems imminent.
goddamn, uni years have been a flash i thought so.
met really good people and really worth making that effort to catch/stay in touch with in future.
it really make my unilife very much spice up.

well, summer has officially arrived.
but rain was all that welcomed yesterday.
which was good. if not we are all gonna drown with the unbearable heat.
with may comes mumday as well.
and this sunday is kinda gathering with my cousin and relatives to celebrate mumday.
we're heading to msia for a sumptuous meal i guess.
which simply meant that im not meeting him, HAHA.
but well, i am this thurs/fri/sat. so oh well, sunday isnt that much out of the rest right.
and hereby, i wish (all)my mum in good health and happy every other single day.

there are a ton of things in my list that is left untouched, till tomorrow's over.
and tons of other things to settle as well.
these asides,
i used to think my dad treats me really unfair, compared to my brothers.
but then fool of me to think that way.
because in this worlds, unfair is fair. unfair is inherent. unfair is nature.
the difference is, we are biologically different.
they are boys, and im a girl.
there's really no point in arguing over this point.
and let there be joy in this fact because my parents wanted to have me after having my brothers.
i was very much wanted and yearned for, even before they knew the result.
and i am here, because they wanted me. because they love to have me.
for all that consistent "unfair" treatment or so it seems, maybe i knew better.
maybe i knew better that it was for the betterment of me.
all of it.

so i go on with life,
with much lesser complaints and scrutiny as if the whole world owes me.
and to live myself in self-pity.
which will be pathetic,
if i keep focusing on things i dont have rather on things i already have.
and more of so, things that others in the rest of the world cannot even dream of.

so im gonna change my thinking.
im gonna fork out for my family.
im gonna change.
and place myself in their shoes,
even if the different sizes that i know of doesnt fit me.