unlike poles attract

如果我们体内都有地心吸引力
我的到底有多强
我们的 到底有多弱

i do what i want when i feel like it

today is sinful day.
din tai fung + ji dei chi
how sinful can it get?

i love being with friends on 十字路口 journey.

cloud cars, cloud cameras, cloud races.

The night race in the sky

Imagine that the lightnings in the sky are actually camera flashes from the cloud cameras of the excited spectators in the heavens. The thunders being the collisions of cloud cars when the angels are having the night race up in the heavens. And the rain was caused by the cloud cars bumping into each other during the frenzied race.

I think that's what happened last night. There was an exciting night race in the sky causing that super heavy rain with numerous flashes of lightnings across the sky.
bubblylaughterz.bs

we are all racers, arent we?
racing with time and every comrades next to us.
if we even name them our comrades.
while my friend's innocent,
im sly evil and mean,
to my bones.
sigh.

cant help it.
cure me.

happy endings are compensated with imperfections

i downloaded loads of movies in funshion.
most are Ang Lee's for schoolwork purposes and Adam Sandler's are for leisure.
i wonder when can i be done with reports and presentations in exchange of movie marathon?

my whole recess week is packed like hell.
#monday: meetup with another host for brainstorming of games for xml's 21st; driving; 3h tuition.
#tuesday: canvassing 11am-7pm; present hunting.
#wednesday: most prob another tuition; xml's 21st @aloha
#thursday: presentation; lecture; cohesion @nsrcc
#friday: cohesion @nsrcc; home
#saturday: spared for mugging
#sunday: planning side meeting @SMU

why am i in CACOC this year?

i belong no one

Thursday, September 15, 2011
Someone like you

Everything is getting better. Maybe yesterday was the day. I guess preparing oneself and letting go do one pretty good. Defining certain terms. And I will try to stick to them. I want to stick to them. Yesterday led me to think. There are so many maybe-s. Maybe we were wrong. It wasn't what we thought of us to be. Maybe we were just really awesome friends. And any extra step of that status would be a fatal one. Thoughts. I wonder where they lead us to. And how beneficial they are to us.

I kind of just want to have a space to myself. Forget some things, create a new identity else where. Begin a new life, know new people, be an entirely new person. Just want to keep things simple. And remain sane as long as I can. :)
Posted by Jayemm at 10:02 PM


yes, and maybe somewhere else,
someone is thinking alike.

祛魅

i gained a pair of panda eyes when i lost my sleep.
what have i done.
schoolwork is not eating me, its engulfing already.

and i wanted to withdraw 50$ today.
the machine told me my amount exceeds my account balance.
what life.

久了 也会麻木的

太平静的人生
人就会找些快感、刺激的
来冲刺自己的生活

最常找的游戏
也就是最危险的游戏
并不是 在高速公路 飙车
而是坠入 无法自拔的 爱情悬崖

为什么人不能控制那泛滥的感情呢
为什么自堪堕落 犯贱呢
这又是为什么

两个人看似
比一个人好过
比一个人幸福
比一个人快乐
真是如此 吗

我很喜欢
一人
坐在咖啡厅
看书
喝茶
观察
听音乐
很享受的

一个人
也可以很好啊
就算周五没约
在家 与家人一起
很泄气吗
很委屈吗
很没脸吗

幼稚
的一群笨蛋
对吧

一个人之所以好
是因为
久了 两个人
也会麻木的

love sought is good but given unsought is better

that spells it all.
should start mugging soon.

无论走个多少回，人生总有亏欠，面对自己或者扯牵其他，心底里的遗憾缺陷，永远都有来不及的人和事，借不到，还不完，一辈子就是一堆不清不楚的债。冤有头债有主，有些是借债来的，有些是还债来的，佛家讲因果循环，六道里即是不止不息的一借一还，这个混沌的世界凹凸崎岖，千丝万缕皆因有借无还，生生世世于是就得纠缠。
http://corpsetheexquisite.blogspot.com/

昔日不会做的事 今日也一样不会

if i have not done the same for the past years, i wouldnt force myself to do it now to create an impression on someone or something.
its worthless cause i wouldnt feel happy doing it anyway.

how complicated this route is, we knew it.
but we've always chose to walk the extra mile.
humans, isnt it?
contradicting beings.

yawns.
i dont wanna think of those dates.
let it flow with the wind please.
damnit.

one down

and 2 more to go.
i've stalled all my revision due to this very presentation.
its a foolish move but there were more matters on hand as well.
i couldnt let all go at once,
and then grab none.

hazards is really a hazardous module.
not that i regretted taking it, but i've no prior knowledge.
simply brave.
i admire my bravery so to speak.

in anyway if i ever offend someone with my behaviours/actions/words,
i'll shut myself off gradually.

P/S. im just plain tired.

我会到达

to the point where i could take that leap of faith.

P/S. better things are just worth waiting.

have me sedated, then tattoo that lower back.

schoolwork is eating me up, AGAIN.

what are you trying to prove

SHIT.
I NEED SOME THINGS TO GET OUT OF MY MIND.
THESE DOESNT HAVE TO HAUNT AND BOTHER ME NOW.
ironically, things that i chose to forget, take some other important stuffs away as well.
(like my studies etcetc)
my memory becomes very vague and faded.
maybe in a while,
i may not even remember things that are precious to me.
oh well.
how ironic.

such is life, yet again.

习惯性的一致认为 却撇开不了的伪装

就因为总假装快乐 在众人面前 却更不能表露难过

im done pretending

pretentious
is why we keep on living
and moving on

in limbo state.