abstinence

stop thinking.
stop hallucinating.
stop fantasizing.

start working.
start studying.
start and then stop everything else.

呼吸你的呼吸

我还活着

而我呼吸着你的声音
声音里全是你的呼吸
但你呼吸着谁的声音

我呼吸不出那把声音
我的声音已无法呼吸
呼吸失声了
声音窒息了

就只能让一切老去
因为时间不能倒转

坚持(unlimitedcolours)

i should really start my revision.
i am trying to this instance.
this semester is really tough, and tougher.
based on the amount of content that i've to memorise and study,
its kinda late now.
but well,
now is better than never i believe.
and im not gonna let myself defeat myself.
thats utter foolishness.

a sunrise is never better than a sunset, no matter how you try to look at it. because if sunrise means a hopeful day, sunset just means the countdown to another hopeful day.
we can all bear hope everyday.
we do have hope.
we can have hope.
with a better and stablised emotions already,
a great day will definitely lie ahead.

utmost gratitude to friends who cared, and listened.
it was the most touched instance of my life.
of course, he did everything he could to make me feel better this week.
thanks a lot peeps and love!

with the end of a disastrous week,
i believe.

"in times of difficulty, be dishearten not.
for crystal rains fall from dark clouds."

父母爱儿女 至死一条心

我很坏
常常让他们伤心痛心担心。
因为我很坏
常常让他们生气无奈坚定。

其实
他们都很好
只是 女儿叛逆
只是 女儿自甘堕落
只是 女儿不堪埋没、忍受

没有人愿意承认自己错
但是
父母爱儿女
是永不变的道理
他们爱我
却从不说出口
爱了
也就 爱了


因为
父母爱儿女 至死一条心

追寻、追求。

还处于茫然之中的她
不知道为了什么
一直在转
一直在篼

清楚 点燃 明亮
变成
朦胧 黯然 消沉
记忆一天天在衰退的她
不时提醒
不时牢记
不时唤醒
清楚 点燃 明亮
在次
朦胧 黯然 消沉

这个世界
带来的
是 阳光
是 点明
是 希望

她的世界
唤起的
是 悲伤
是 凄凉
是 萧瑟

可能
她所真正需要的
是一点鼓励
就那么一点
可能
她的世界
所看到的
不是夕阳
不是日落

是日出
是肯定。

失败乃是兵家常事

因为我是 强者
不可能就轻易 打倒

勇敢！

还好

我还好。

谁又曾在乎她是否 快乐 活着

内心的我
很难受
很痛苦
很在意

别人不知也罢
但他也不解
这也难怪
男人
始终
毕竟
还是男人

该敏感的
还是一样不敏感
该体贴的
还是一样没体贴
该坦白的
还是一样
不肯坦白

快乐
好像遥不可己
对于一切的发生
对于一切的状况
对于一切的事物
我该怎么对待
我该怎么看开
我到底该怎么做？

我真的很痛苦
如果我想死
也没人救得了我

好想好想
好想好想
痛哭。。

fuck the intermittent headache

feeling down down down down down lately.
wasnt able to sort out my thoughts really well.
wasnt able to manage my emotions the right way.
wasnt able to handle my affairs rationally.

something in me is eating me up.
i wanna be alone.
and faraway from home.
but i know well that i couldnt.
one of these days, i had to return.
somewhere that i should belong but isnt the moment now.

how life is at this point in time.
i thought i should be content.
i got everything i needed.
university.
job.
home.
friends.
love.
food.
money.

but life as it is,
we never got enough of it, isnt it?
we always wanted more.
to satisfy the endless emptiness in us.

feeling really down down down down down lately.
what can i do to free myself?
what can i do?

vitesse

速度
快感
刺激

男人
寻找的
也只有这些吗？

what is in the minds and eyes of men?
are they ever all the same?
or was i wrong from the start?

somehow,
men are superficially equivalent.
yet differently characterised as well.
well, who say women are contradictory and mysterious to start with?
men are too.
more or less, we are similar.

cant help but to feel more insecure than ever whenever he's driving.
speed, something so addictive yet dangerous at the same time.
sometimes i just pray for his safety.
like seriously.

sigh.
and when do my words start to mean something more?

三月

时间
免费，却又同时无价。

该来的考试、测验、报告
随着时间
慢慢逼近。

三月了。
仿佛那日像是昨天似的，
画面虽是模糊
但感觉上还是清晰的。

已经忘了
悠闲自在一个人的生活
也开始接纳两个人
在生命中所作出的演变。

其实
时间很奇妙吧
能让回忆紧扣
也能让记忆随着时间
慢慢流逝。

很庆幸时间能让我忘掉的
还有它所能带给我的。